cracking really lame..”well she should have been Straight Edge” jokes about Amy Winehouse. I do not condone drugs and I am militant in my beliefs on drugs and Alcohol, but she was a young, very talented woman and its a shame that she was so fucked up that it all went to waste.
99% of you probably won’t be Edge in the next two years anyway, shut the fuck up, when you have contributed something to the world then you might have some reason to be self righteous.
Apart from the stupid fucking fights that kicked off, with some randoms that just really didn’t get that pushing people and getting aggro whilst people danced was not a good move. Which they really should of realised when it kicked off during Chains of Hate not to try and repeat that during another band, that put a downer on it, because the band were just stood there like spare parts, whilst nearly everyone in the venue bundled out or was kicked out, in a way tho, I preferred that as all the twats were gone, which was more room for everyone else to enjoy themselves. I certainly did, I moshed myself ragged the whole set and didn’t have a bunch hype beasts moshing ignorantly to look hard like most shows these days.
It sucks for FB that most people in the UK disregard that type of hardcore these days, so they don’t get a good turn out or much of a reaction. I feel that I probably won’t see them again, they will bypass the UK and just play Euro shows, where kids are still receptive to what they do. Which is a bit rubbish as I still love that type of hardcore and desperately miss the shows that used to happen, and the laughs that were had. People always ask Marc why I am not at shows all the time, well the answer is I just don’t turn up to every show just to be there, to be seen and to hang out with a bunch of kids and when I say kids, I actually mean kids, children, teenagers that I have pretty much nothing in common with for the most part, I have a different mindset and outlook and whilst I do enjoy the occasional show, I just can’t hack a lot of this hype nonsense that is happening. I do not begrudge bands getting popular in anyway, well done, for the most part a lot of them deserve it, but when it is the same fucking line up, week after week, just jiggled about slightly, I get bored. I dont want to see the same bands over and over and over, its just stale for me and when the most popular of bands names aren’t on the bill, people just don’t give a shit and that’s sad. I don’t close myself off to any of the bands that are happening right now, but many people do close themsleves off to music, if its not a set of popular bands or ‘in vogue’ american touring bands then they dont get a look in, Musically my brain is still in the past and unfortunately, the bands are now broken up or just defunct as no one will give them the time of day, so unless i go to the USA/Europe , I miss out on a whole chunk of the hardcore that i ‘grew’ up to. The good thing about a lot of Europe, they are still eclectic in their hardcore tastes, so most bands, what ever their sub genre will get on okay over there.
People mistake my nostalgia for all shows/bands in past as being elitist, but its just me reminiscing and caught up in a time that I was psyched on something, I really enjoy(ed), I loved going to CT for shows in the scout huts, being able to see xCanaanx, TxBxI and NCF, OTI, kids going off. Road/Train Trips up to Leeds, Nottingham and Sheffield and seeing 50 on red, the legacy, the last chance. Edge Day when Champion and The Promise played which was such a great time, there never was another one! (probably not enough bands to play it or people to go, haha) Manchester’s The First Step show, when BMTH played and they were just little kids, who parents ferried them about with scene haircuts and tight jeans and the hc kids there looked on bemused. Ptown shows in little pubs, Seeing Terror and their first show at the dome, when tickets werent £286635383. May putting on tonnes of great shows, all dayers, ninjafest, seasons beatings. A show featuring The break in pretty much every sunday at the verge.
It all just felt so different for me then, maybe I just grew up?
at 4.30 this morning, I planned for 3.30am but I just couldnt wake myself up and slept an hour longer.
Yesterday tired me out so badly, walking miles around london to get some shoes that I can’t seem to get anywhere and the pair I really wanted and could get from topshop, canvas and £18 have fucking leather inside of them. What the actual fuck, why would you need to put leather inside a pair of canvas fucking shoes. NO NEED AT ALL. I am actually going to complain to topshop and tell them to sort it the fuck out. just ridiculous.
Then I went to first blood, I am so grateful to Ricci for getting me on the list as it was fucking £18 on the door, I would never have paid that, Agnostic Front pull in the type of crowd I don’t like to be at shows with just due to the fact its a push mosh free for all mess and it sucks to be shoved about when you dance in your own space, just unnecessary. It also sucked he kept asking for circle pits, I hate them with a passion. I wonder why american bands call for them? Its just not the same anymore which is a bit crap. Lets hope tonight is good, if i make it, I am trying to power through today and sleep normally tonight, the chances of me lasting without a nap at some point today are about 1%, I already feel like I could have a full 9hrs sleep, I have work at 8am tomorrow, the thought is already killing me.
Yes, in college. was total disaster! after that, noone, never found anyone to be with. way too picky to ever settle. maybe that should have been applied to boys aswell, would have saved me much hassle! xo
I don’t believe sexuality is fixed, its very fluid. Why does a person need to define their sexual preference? I like what I like, regardless of gender or sex. What matters is the person, not whats in their pants. xo