sometimes i actually wonder if people know it’s meant to be for life and not til your 18th birthday?
I often wonder this as well, which is maybe why people in most cases should refrain from claiming til they are 18. What I also wonder about…is how people have the AUDACITY to reclaim. If you break, your done. You can’t decide to have another go when it suits you. You will never be edge again. Drug Free/Sober/T-Total at best.
"One strike and your fucking out….unashamed I will remain"
3lbs last week, compared to one the week before, when I was watching what I ate and portion regulated. Last week, I ate pizza hut twice and had 2 big portions of fatty deep fried chips. How does that work?
I don’t even eat many calories and the ones i mostly do eat, arent ‘bad’ calories, as they are all veg a bit of bread, some pasta. So why am I loosing not loosing weight left, right and centre? Maybe the bad calories actually give my body something to properly burn off and work at?
I did some core exercise tonight as my core fitness is balls, I am so unfit, I could only do 20 minutes of exercises before I got bored and after 5 months off skates and doing NOTHING as I had no motivation to do anything, the little bit i built up has died.
Oh how I miss this band. Its a bit of a shame they turned into what they did. I had such an awesome time at the full edge show they did in LDN with Throwdown, xCanaanx and Seventh Judgement. Seems like so long ago now (actually it was!) shame they turned into a pile of fraff, TD think they are the second comming of pantera and the other two have been laid to rest. :(
was my first day back to derby practice in 5 months! I can’t believe how quickly time had flown and how much I had missed. I was kinda dreading it at first as I thought id be soo, soo far behind. But yesterday was awesome. I didn’t feel out of my depth, even tho I had missed so much and am miles behind everyone else, it helps that there is new Vets there, so I don’t feel bottom of the heap and have people around my level. It also felt good that several people came up to me and told me that I did really well and that I didn’t look like I hadn’t been for months or stuck out that I didn’t know what I was doing or couldn’t keep up. It was also lovely to be paired up with Jo for the hitting drills we did, she gave me some good feeback and pointers. All in all it was a positive return and I was happy I went back.
I just hope that I can keep it up and not go awol for months again when I go into meltdown. I just need to be more confident in my ability and keep pushing forward!
tonight at brownies, but i woke up today with a majorly painful shoulder, i think I slept badly on it and feeling dizzy and like I am going to be sick everytime i stand up. I was meant to do it last week but I had no voice and I cannot do vigorous exercise as I and a few of the brownies have asthma, so its gonna all be strength type exercise.